Thursday, September 22, 2011

One Year Ago Tonight

One year ago tonight, we almost lost Cole after he came out of heart surgery. Tonight we looked at him longer than usual, we held him a little tighter. Tonight we looked at our girls a little longer and held them a little tighter. Tonight we got a little choked up as a we prayed and were humbled again for being given a second chance with Cole.
As I sat and thought of all Cole's favorite things and favorite things to do and how we almost weren't sitting here a year later doing them with him, one of those things was singing "Puff The Magic Dragon," Cole's favorite bedtime song.
But, we are sitting here a year later and we have been given 365 days more than we thought we would get. In reality we have almost 4 years more than we thought we would get because nobody knew if Cole would make it past delivery on January 7th, 2008. Every day is a gift with all of them, make it remind you that a brand new day is another gift.
I have to look there or I will start to look forward to the days of what ifs. Those moments definitely come, but over all I want to make our days filled with the present.

Our hearts are heavy tonight thinking of moms and dads tonight that are about to go through surgery with their little one, or are in the middle of it, or have gone through it and still trying to get above water with all they have just gone through and seen their little boy or girl go through. We pray strength for you as you go into the trenches together and the personal wars you will fight in this and through this and after this. We pray for peace in your spirit that you can only know came from God because only He can bring peace like that in the middle of something so traumatic.
We pray for a quick healthy recovery for your little one and for a strong healthy heart and a strong healthy body.

Thank you to everyone who has been praying for Cole and our family and continue to.

I'll have to get a recent picture of "Skinny Deetz" up. His latest thing is wanting to sit in the back with big sis Ava in a booster seat, but he has to gain a few lbs. to make weight for the booster seat, so we are trying to use that as leverage to get him to eat enough to put some meat on him.