Matt and I as well as so many of you have been praying for months that every person who was suppose to be with Cole caring for him down to the ladies who come in to make sure Cole's room is sanitary and clean that they would be put there by God, or we would know that every person in Cole's path was suppose to be there and it was no coincidence.
I want everyone to know that those 8-10 people last night were the best of the best that "happened" to be there at that time. The head nurse was not even suppose to be there that day and especially in CVICU where we were. One of the cardiologists that was not there but was filled in on Cole's situation said. "Oh you had the dream team."
Dr. Watts came in close to 1:00 pm today and told us if we were going to step away from Cole and get out of the hospital, now would be the time. They have one on one nurses in CVICU but progressive is a different story and we will need to be there full time.
So we came home to show Ava and Lila that Cole is not the only one in our world right now. He's a big part but they only understand that we are their mommy and daddy no matter what is going on in life. We are grabbing some "Woody Crackers" a request of Cole's even though he can't eat yet because they don't want the stress of a possible hurl right now.
Woody Crackers are Cheez-its that have Toy Story characters on them. Totally and super nutritious they are! I'm also grabbing bribery items for when he starts being his old self again and wants to do his own 2 year old thing even if it hurts.
From a mommy's heart and I know Matt feels this way too but the one thing I can't wait to see is Cole's 152 tooth smile. He has teeth like a shark, I swear there are like 2 rows of teeth and a smile that takes up half his face!
I couldn't figure out what I kept feeling and it's almost like survivor's guilt. Even when we were leaving our nurse and another nurse were having a new patient coming over to CVICU a 5 month old baby coming out of surgery had coded in surgery and coded again on the way over to where we were. I shouldn't feel guilty that Cole made it out of what he did, but it's hard not to feel heavy hearted.
Also I'm going to put some recent pictures from earlier around noon before we left him resting peacefully.
3 comments:
Sweet little man! Seeing pictures of him looking so handsome and brave warms my heart. We've been praying for him and y'all without ceasing. He is a fighter and he's in the mighty and strong hands of Jesus. That is an unbeatable combination! Kiss him for us! xoxo Auntie Zibi, Uncle Jon, Isabella, and Shepherd
I'm so glad I bookmarked your blog. It was so good to see photos of your little man sitting up, and to hear that he is wanting familiar things - and giving the nurses grief :-) sending you and your family love and prayers.
BTW - not only are people across the US praying for you, but I'm all the way across the ocean in Australia. x
Hi Vicky-
WOW!!! Australia? That is God's Hand at work!
I spoke to Laura last night and she said that although Cole was still grouchy and "disagreeable," that more tubes had been removed and she got a chance to hold him.
He immediately fell asleep when he was snuggled up to his mommy. What a mama's boy!
Thank you so much for sending prayers accross the pond...that is so cool.
Matt
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